Speaking in front of a classroom of wide-eyed highschoolers in a foreign country about the future of education, finding your fullest potential, and Praxis, and ending the day by walking alone through a new city’s streets, fascinated. Waking up the next morning to the sound of unique birds, and eating breakfast in a small café run by a heartwarming local. Opening my laptop to find an incredible sense of forward momentum, knowing I’m doing something that is creating a real impact. Having the sense that what I’m doing matters. Changing the world. 

Being on a video call with other world-changers, strategizing ways to further the mission we have. Having intense collaborative discussion about what we’ll do next to improve and move onward. Drowning in the fulfillment of doing something that is actually creating impact. Feeling a sense of significance and doing something that matters. People that have the same drive I do. Ending the call and immediately beginning work on a video, marketing strategy, graphic, or something else, having it done at lightning speed, sending it to the group, and collaborating on how it can be better. Strategizing marketing for something I know I care about bringing to the world.

Being on a voice call with a Praxian or other adolescent about their intense, crippling struggles and life crises, and counseling them through it all. Being told I changed someone’s life. 

Eating an exotic but delicious lunch while writing a blog post about education or personal development, and then leaving the laptop and phone behind to go on a hike in a magnificent world of splendor. Spending the afternoon capturing nature and culture through photography, and staying up late into the night figuring out the perfect photo to share with followers of my travels.

Working in an elephant sanctuary, bonding with the animals, doing odd manual labor to help them, and then retreating to a humid bungalow, opening my laptop, and creating and implementing plans to bring Praxis and the message it embodies to the world. 

Creating a video from start to finish about something I care about. Taking photos for something I care about. Marketing for something I know is making an impact. Making social media and blog posts about things I care about. Educating and helping others in a domain of positive change. 

Speaking at conferences like TED and Voice and Exit about the future of education. 

Knowing I’m working to change the world, but never stopping.

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These are just moments, but they’re the only way I can describe what I want. Many weeks have been spent trying to “hone in” in what I’ll do with my life, trying to pick a specific field or skill, but it isn’t so simple. I know that I want to be working with the best people in the world, creating in a field that makes me come alive, and changing people’s lives. I said the word “Praxis” many times, but that is because so far, it is the only thing I have found that gives me the sense of excitement and adrenaline I so desperately crave. Being around and involved in it makes me feel alive. From the moment I was exposed to it, I knew without doubt it was what I had been looking for. It makes me feel alive. Education is everything. Maybe other things of similar significance to me exist that I haven’t yet discovered, maybe not but the world is huge.

Working in an office for years, sitting, writing sales copy for a genuinely cool startup that has a product that might change this one aspect of an industry, but knowing that there are people right now working on changing the entire world, impacting people’s lives, strategizing ways to bring the message and mindsets I care about to others, is a condition I will avoid like the plague. I will never sit idly by watching others change the world. I will never compromise for the sake of stability and security when I know the power I have within me. I will never settle for a job that leaves a hole in my soul just to be able to have a job. I will never stay in a situation for its convenience. I will never voluntarily work in a domain that will serve the purpose of only impressing others. I will never accept a condition other than one of forward momentum. I will never refuse to take risks to maintain an illusion of having what I need. I will never sacrifice my fire, my passion, or my drive for the sake of “being realistic.”I refuse to accept a condition of static complacency. I can’t accept just existing. I want to live! I would rather die than live a life that isn’t alive. I would live in a desert shack for the rest of my life in order to do the work I know is important.Materialstic values and temporary pleasures are meaningless to me. I don’t care if I live like a king, I don’t care if my paycheck is large or if my home is small, and I don’t care if I’m given a medal.

I feel unstoppable. I don’t know what out there can stop me, but if there’s something, I’ll find it. And then I’ll keep going.